It’s not a game. I’m serious about breaking the blocks.

I had an interesting conversation with a really good friend of mine yesterday. He was asking about my writer’s block and offering suggestions on how to get my pen/mind/heart back into writer mode. What began as me talking in circles (which happens often when I’m talking through my issues) it all became so very clear.

I explained that I first started blogging because I was so very opinionated. I had thoughts/feelings about everything going on in the world around me. And so much of my previous blog posts were filled with my judgments regarding my surroundings, my life, politics, music, relationships, etc.

But as I began to become more spiritual, I had to learn to leave my judgments by the wayside. I had to stop seeing the world through the frames of “good vs. bad” or “smart vs. stupid” or even “right vs. wrong.” Though I did not abandon caring about the happenings in the world around me, I stopped being so moved by them. Things happen that I disagree with, of course. But I lost the desire to rant about anything. I see the world how I see it. That’s my truth. Someone else’s truth may be different. But as long as truth is viewed through the human eye, there is no absolute truth. No what “should be.” Only what is.

When I said all of this out loud yesterday, it dawned on me that I was having a hard time writing because my perspective on life is changing. I’m far more Zen about things these days, which means that a new writing voice will have to emerge. One that is as honest and raw as the old one, but true to the way I currently view the world.

I thought I needed more discipline. To gain “control” of the writing. But no. I realize that the only thing I need to do is just write. Abandon my 1+2 logic, come to the keyboard, move my fingers and let God do the rest. Good or bad, whatever results is authentically me.

Talk about a moment of clarity.