Into the Darkness

“Some women are lost in the fire. Some women are built from it.”

Like everyone who watches the HBO hit show Game of Thrones, I’m completely in love with the Khalessi character. Former naïve virgin who evolves into a powerful queen, leader of a large and fiercely loyal army, and a mother of dragons, she’s an all-around badass.

One of my favorite Khaleesi scenes is when she has to burn the body of her recently deceased warrior king husband. During the funeral ritual, she bravely walks into the fire, carrying three dragon eggs that were gifted to her on her wedding day. Her advisors and followers are all terrified, thinking that after losing her husband and birthing a stillborn baby, she’s about to commit suicide.

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Sitting With Saturn (An Astrology Post)

It’s hard not to start astrology-related posts with disclaimers, because I get it. There are a lot of folks who think astrology is bullshit, and if my only references were Sun Sign descriptions and vague daily horoscopes, I’d raise a brow as well. But the thing is–there’s more to it.

I’m not here to make you a believer, though. As usual, I’m here to tell you a story about my life and this particular tale happens to be heavily-influenced by the stars.

Three years ago, when I first had my natal chart done, I learned that my Moon is in Scorpio. What the hell does that mean, you ask? Well, while your Sun sign represents your “doing” and self-expression, the Moon sign reveals your emotional life and how you handle things internally. To be honest, I was upset to know that my emotional life was ruled by such an intense, brooding sign like Scorpio, but of course it made perfect sense. I have to go through several layers of feels privately before I can present the calm and collected version of SBG that most folks meet. This discovery also explained why I’m not the typical “sunshine and rainbows” variety of my Sun sign, Libra. I’m far less romantic, less into partnership, and less idealistic than the common Libra. (Side note: here is the best descriptor of a Libra Sun/Scorpio Moon combination. It’s my personality in a nutshell.)

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#30in30 Day Ten: Half Notes Scattered

…as you are very good at hiding your true feelings. In fact, you may be almost pathological in your secretiveness, never revealing yourself entirely. Very few people ever know very much about what goes on inside you.  – As read in my natal chart, regarding my Moon in Scorpio.

Yesterday was an odd day. Thanks to a fantastic weekend (which will be the subject of a future post as I catch up on my #30in30 challenge), I walked into Monday feeling incredibly whole and happy. Giddy almost. But something happened between my office and home that pulled me into one of my unidentifiable moods. That’s the thing about being a highly emotional person who hates that she’s emotional. I’m so dismissive of my feelings that I’ll fall into brooding with no real knowledge of what the hell is wrong with me.

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